The “what ifs” . . .

I don’t know about you guys but the what ifs really mess with my mind.  At times I can torture myself with thoughts of, well what if this happened or did not happen, then what?  This weekend David was taking a bath in our bathroom, which he rarely does because all his toys and things are in his bathroom.  Brian was taking a shower while David was in the bath and he hears this clap clap clap.  He peeks his head out of the shower and sees that David has my flat-iron that is plugged in, in his hand in the bath.  Now I am not sure if he actually submerged the flat-iron because 1.it still works and 2. my GFCI outlet is still working, I didn’t have to reset it.  Despite all that the actually thought of what could have happened just makes me sick.  To think that life can change so quickly in the blink of an eye can be quite scary.  Needless to say I serve a mighty, powerful, and amazing God and nothing happened to David. 

It is interesting to look back over the week I had and think about last night.  I had a rough week with my sweet two-year old and then to think of the “what ifs” makes me think that I need to cherish my rough times with my two-year old because I would happily take those rough times over the “what ifs”.   I will for sure need the help of my loving God to help me cherish those rough times.  As a mom I daily see areas that I want to better myself in.  I want to be more patient, have more self-control, have more peace, gentleness, and more Love.  I know it doesn’t happen over night and I am so thankful that God is patient with me during my rough times. 

In September we will have been here for one year! I can’t believe it, the time has gone by so fast.  I absolutely am in love with Spring Hill.  I love the family feel,  I love my church Thompson Station Baptist Church and I feel like I am home, minus my family :(.  I have learned a lot since I have been here in Tn.  The biggest thing I am learning is what life is about, what my purpose on this earth is for.  It’s for Him! When I take the time to have that mindset the earthly things are really not that important and they will not follow me to heaven.  I still have so much to learn in this area, and in a lot of areas at that, but its an amazing feeling to get to know and understand your heavenly father more and more.  Thank you Lord for loving me and being patient with me!

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Hollis
    Jun 28, 2010 @ 03:25:38

    Jen…..
    What a beautiful post!!
    That’s the cry of my heart, too. Lord, I am so imperfect but I want to know You more. I am thankful that He is patient with me, as well.
    I know that we will be rewarded with what we seek because we seek more of Him.
    God bless you and your family!!!
    Love you lots!!
    Hollis

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  2. Sara Lee Fouts
    Jun 28, 2010 @ 15:28:57

    Thanks for sharing this, Jen! You are not alone, believe me!
    Love ya, Sara Lee

    Reply

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